Some days I wonder if this (trying to run) is really worth it.
Take today for example....I go out and for some stupid reason (physical? mental? I dont know), I can barely get 60 seconds on a run. It's not that I am tired or breathing extremely hard. My legs just STOP. It happened last week too. So after about two rounds of that, I thought "screw it, I'm walking home." This is barely 1 mile into my journey.
So I walk. And I mean POWER walk....felt rather good actually. Didn't have the same nagging leg cramps that I did while running. And I kept going. When I got home, I found that power walking put me within one minute of my average RUNNING pace time. WTF? So maybe I'm just having an off day mentally...but it really fries my shorts that I can bust my behind and feel like I am going to pass our or puke trying to run 60-90 seconds at a time (a 5K? who are YOU fooling? I'll rejoice when I can run 1 mile without stopping)...and then power walk and find myself going almost the same speed.
What am I doing wrong? Sometimes I get real jealous of the people who say "oh I'm going for an easy run today...3-4 miles" EASY?? are you KIDDING me?? for me, easy is walking my 2 miles. Maybe I'm just not cut out to be a runner in the mental state. I wonder if I can hit a 14 minute mile while walking...then I could still enter my races but walk 99% of it.
Does anyone else have this issue? seriously? Cause I feel like a loser right now....
15:51 mile 1
17:22 mile 2
damn it I'm getting slower. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.